I feel like I am not supposed to be alive anymore

No matter how severe your sin, you have the right to live, even if you were using JS and convinced others to use it.

@retoor oh yea. And then theres angry people. I never understood it. Really uncomfortable to be next to those!

Been there more times than I can remember.

If you've made up your mind already, then what's the rush? Stay around for a while longer, see how much worse it's gonna get over a week or a month. You don't have to care for it, just stay here for entertainment.

You can nick yourself any time, there's no need to hurry... But when you do, you won't see what happens next. That's the unfortunate part of the deal... So stay aroud just for shits and giggles. Sit back, relax and watch what happens next :)

this attitude kept me going through ice and fire, when all I wanted was to give up and sink right where I stood. And it still is :)

nah, it wasn’t you.