This is kind of personal, but I need to share it somewhere, and I feel like this is the only place I can speak without anyone judging me.

Today my doctor told me (after several examinations by several specialised doctors) that I have colon irritabile, that probably roots in some mental issues.

First I gotta fucking schedule every damn thing I eat and make sure I eat 8 meals a day instead of the usual 3, but then eat lesser portions.
I eat pretty healthy anyway, so the food itself is not the issue.
The biggest issue is, that I have to tell my boss, my best friends and so on, so they know why I visit the toilet my often than other people.

I'm so fucking tired of myself and my body. It's just one huge roller coaster, and I fucking hate it :(