Your life is the reflection of your mind

Did think about it often, everything checks out, maybe we're creating our own worlds. Who knows. Hallicunation of hallicunations.

and my mind is a reflection of things others have forced onto me in my life, especially back when I was ignorant so couldn't process such things well

so idk causality of past doesn't really get you to a good future. they fucked it up but you still have to deal with it

@alexanderwang the what

that just sounds vague

it's not like a physical habit or something

@jestdotty maybe others are reflection of your mind as well.

I mean, everyone suffers, everyone know happyness, everything is relative, you are in the center yourself... Would life be much different if I designed it myself? Not sure. So, in my theory, it could be that I created all of you 😁 I do not really believe that, but it's a theory. A friend of mine did, considered him to say by forever. If he doesn't consider me a real entity, you can not trust such guy.

@retoor I agree, but my step-mom is a evil fucking bitch not only to me but everyone, including her past employees and friends.

@alexanderwang i watched xnxx today, they know how to deal with stepmothers. YOu should check that site for advice.

@retoor almost openned xnxx in the office, motherfucker.

I wouldn't even fuck her. I don't want anything to do with her. She's erased from my life.

She created me though and my split personality. I guess thank her. She is my origin story.

Traded a physically abusive step-dad for a emotionally abusive step-mom. Biggest mistake of my life of 2011. I got a broken rib and nose from stepdad but her psychological abuse and lies were worse than that (in just a span of 3 years btw!) fucking bitch.

@alexanderwang rookie mistake, you don't hit your children on places people can see.

@retoor I make it a point not to force my problems on others

at least if I'm feeling well enough. since getting abandoned due to job PTSD fuck morals.
either case it hasn't done anything for me to curse others with my garbage though, so.

when people tell me retarded shit I address the retarded shit instead of the people. this used to work in 2000s but now people are so screwed up and self-centered they don't even notice. and def aren't available for anyone else. the 90s were such a human time on the other hand

@jestdotty agree.

my mind is messy asf