well seems my physical body rejected my astral self and then shit went fuck

guiizz emotions are important. as is that little voice in your head that they call the conscience. if it goes away turns out you feel lonely, and then you only have base "human" emotions of survival, and walk around like a retard with physical health problems no gold-plated health diet will ever save you from (even past getting thru all the misinformation in institutions which are paid by big soy and corn and petroleum and chemical industries). wild how consistent all this is oh my god