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i started smoking cigarettes 1 year ago. and its getting more intense. i only smoke when i am overburned with HEAVY. HEAVY FUCKING STRESS.

11 august 2024 i had a mental breakdown. complete crashout due to losing ANOTHER 2000$ on $VINE coin

i crashed out so hard. so badly. in front of my parents. dad picked me up from floor and hugged me and he was shaking. mom was comforting me confused and scared. i uncontrollably breathed hard shaked and cried.

thats why i started.

crypto was the trigger to start smoking for the first time ever after 27 years.

now 28 years later i am still smoking but very rarely. took me 1 year to smoke 1 pack of cigs. now im on a 2nd pack.

i smoke 2-4 cigs per session one after another.

am i fucking going insane?

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  • 2
    Smoke on special ocasion like Jin Yiang
  • 3
    Meanwhile at retoors home. Yes, this is a fortune :p I also think our definition of a pack is different. For me that means a wrapper of ten packs :p I smoke around 15 per day. Quite average for a smoker.
  • 8
    The lack of emotional control in your posts is astounding. Every emotion you feel is an excuse to behave poorly I have a hard time relating to this, or understanding this.

    Are you a victim in your mind?
  • 2
    @whimsical is that bad lighting or extremely dense brown haze?
  • 2
    @Lensflare Everything in the room is yellow-ish, the walls, the curtains and the light from lamp. Having made the picture in the dark, so everything is from the light. It's a very beautiful chalet. It's slmost new. But the style is verry summer. It's extremely cozy. Have shared quite some pictures here. I only have issue that I have double glass and water in between in two windows. The landlord just says "Meh". We'll see if a window breaks in winter. It's a few cm of water often in bottom of window.
  • 0
    @whimsical But you're not chinese
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