So I was looking at gdscript and wondered if I could use emojis in code. The answer is yes, I think. But then I thought aren't Chinese characters a form of ancient emojis? Apparently a lot of places I found on google seem to think yes. That Chinese characters were first created as pictographs and later were turned into modern writing. So if a compiler/language supports Chinese characters it is supporting some ancient emojis.

It is wild that history is kind of looping around and repeating with the creation of emojis.

Starting to hate companies more. Some company in their online application was asking for SSN, birth date, and legal name. When you apply to a company that is ONLY provided when doing background checks after an offer has been made. Any other time and it is a red flag for a fake company stealing identities.

I reported the fuckers to linkedin for fraud. Also messaged them directly and told them it was inappropriate and makes them look like identity stealers.

Hundreds of people applied to this company. Stupid fuckers.

Wow, I found a new low for companies when looking for a job. I thought forcing someone to sign up for a newsletter was bad. Well, it is not the same company, but a different company is now spamming me their services. I applied for a job and am now a few weeks later getting spam emails from them. I am not even sure how they got that address as it isn't my main job email.

To all the people coming here to start some shit...

I salute your efforts! This place is better when people are saying petty shit to each other...in jest.

Sometimes this place reminds me of this song:
https://youtube.com/watch/...

I mean, I come here to share and harass...

WTF people! You are not providing the entertainment my trolling is intended to provide.

You, yeah you! Seriously, get bent out of shape when people post inflammatory shit...

Why do I even bother?

...sigh...

Congrats to everyone on devrant!!!
YOU WON "THE GAME"!!!

So I decided to try a vpn. I got the protonvpn free service. I can see that it changed my ip address. But can I tell if it is encrypting traffic? All the websites I accessed didn't seem to care my location went from the USA to some place in Asia. I would have thought it would force a relogin or look suspicious.

It is wild. reddit rejects tor, but is okay with vpn?

AI flagged the Declaration of Independence as being 99.9% AI generated.

Well, the crown considers the writers to be Actual Insurrectionists. So technically correct.

Also noticed people on linkedin have less humor than on reddit, if at all possible.

So I saw a new fucked up trick a job offering company did. If you view their job offers and want to click on one of them it forces you to sign up to their newsletter. No opt out in small lettering.

What kind of fucked up place forces opting into a news letter to view a job offer?

Job searching in 2018. Not great options, but job providers and sites are still human.

Job searching in 2025. Process is completely devoid of human decency, filled with cunts, and makes you want to die early. Plus there are NO FUCKING JOBS.

Tell me the truth.

Do the curtains match the carpet?

A Nature Methods paper found that even containerized ML code can produce different results on different hardware. Same code + same data + different GPU = different outcome.

They are even seeing this with containers. Because hardware, drivers, and libraries in actual machine differ.

See people arguing over determinism in code gen. I wonder how much hardware matters.

Did you know that if you boil a funny bone, it becomes a laughing stock?

There is a dead bird in our yard. My wife asked me to clean it up by texting me.

wife: Can you pick up the dead bird in the backyard?
me: Its just resting.
wife: With no head
me: Its a headless swoon
wife: Its dead and needs a new resting place.
me: beautiful plumage

Fuck, ppl saying this food someone made states like shrimp. It was chicken. Probably freezer burned and take on flavor of the freezer. I don't know. Nobody got sick yet.

Should an RPG exist that normalizes skills somehow? You can increase skills, but it doesn't make some enemies so easy they just fall down after one hit. I get how in D&D that you can tank more the higher level. But it was rare to increase attributes. Now it seems every RPG increases attributes. So early enemies fall down very easy.

How to keep things challenging without making enemies too easy? At some point everything is one hit and dead.

Fuck, I had an initial screening on Tuesday. Recruiter said they would send me an email so I can look over some stuff this weekend. No email. I tried messaging them on Indeed where they contacted me about sending them a targeted CV. Nothing. I found them on linkedin and requested a connect. Nothing. I am trying to be relaxed about this, but I will be pissed if they are ghosting me. They need someone before January. Bitch, I am right here!

Why are companies that can't get anybody to do the work locally, then try to get someone remote, and STILL try to require a short onsite stint?

Either be remote or don't please.

I dunno, see where this goes I guess.

Do you know why Gen X people have better immune systems than all yall whipper snappers?

Because we chewed the gum we found on the bottom of our school desks.

We didn't care if we drank from the same soda can.

It was common to play in parasite infested waters. (Actually a kid I knew in high school that got amoebas in his brain from that shit. He lost of a year of high school he had to repeat.)

Truth be told we probably don't have better immune systems. The younger gens are fucking each other and think condoms stop disease. So yall probably got Syphilis.

Christa McAuliffe said to her husband before the launch: "You feed the dog, I will feed the fish."

Our German friends made us lunch:
Spaetzle, Jagershnitzle, Gechmorter Kohl, Tiramisu

I felt like we should have been playing German marching music during lunch. They also confirmed that Germans don't have a sense of humor. They did tell some good jokes. Mixed signals.

They served pork, I could have told concentration camp jokes and been mostly safe.

"The burnt pen-is mightier than the sword."
- Vaporator User ostream

"Mind if I smoke?"
- Concentration Camp Inmate 107984

"C++ is made for segfaults."
- Flaming Rust User @sucksemballz

"LSD is a key component to vibe coding."
- @retoorii

"If you are not offended then I will try harder next time."
- some asshole on devrant

So November is epilepsy awareness month.

People literally shaking with excitement about this.

We have a cold moving through our house. Some people have it, some people don't.

Me: Do you have a cold?
Kid: I don't know...
Me: Is your nose running?
Kid: Yes
Me: Then why don't you go catch it?
Kid: ...shut up...

The push for AI is going to put people in hot water and possibly jail. Here is one example.

Is it okay to put a resume into an AI Detector to determine if it was AI written?

If PII is not removed, and the AI Detector is a public service (meaning no control of where the data goes) then it may be a GDPR violation. PII is not a joke in the USA either. There are things you have to follow to protect that. Work history is also a form of PII. It names places you worked so someone could figure out it is you that way.

Also, why would anyone care if they used AI to work on their resume? People are being asked to modify their resume to match job descriptions. One tool to do that is to use AI to help with this. If someone does this, and doesn't proof read that is on them. Also, you have to tone down the flowery bullshit AI produces. It embellishes and flat out lies.

This world can fuck right off.

March of 2025. I dove into a depression as a complication of my bipolar 2. Has less mania and more I want to die episodes. I noticed this as losing all interest in everything in my life. I DIDN'T HEED THE WARNING!!!

This results in me being distracted at work and struggling to learn a new platform. It also doesn't help that my supervisor keeps pulling me off the project to work on other shit. ALL OF WHICH I COMPLETED SUCCESSFULLY. They even gave me a 4% raise in March. Apparently it didn't help my depression.

We get to May and my supervisor takes away the programming tool used to program the platform I am working on (embedded processor). I complain and they say I am not getting it back. In my head I should have seen this as a fucking RED FLAG and pushed back.

Then in July the CTO says I need to have my code finished for the new platform in one month. I tell my supervisor I don't think I can (should have spoke up about the programming tool because I CAN'T TEST ANY FUCKING CODE!) He says: "I think you can do it!"

So I am trying to code blindly on a platform I can't test the code. I get to August and report I am testing code on Linux because I have no way to test on the platform. Apparently the CTO doesn't like this. So he starts sending people to walk by my office to "spy" on me because he suspects a character flaw. I don't realize this is happening until after the fact. Apparently I am on my phone too much (which is not typical, but I suspect my depression fucked me here).

I get called to a meeting with HR and my supervisor. They are firing me for performance and violating policy of using my phone outside of break times. This is August 14th. I am compliant and don't make a scene (it won't help). My supervisor is crying and the CTO made him fire me and sign everything.

The CTO also made a statement about how I was never deserving of the job title because I was never creative enough or good enough or some shit. This is the same guy that praised my past solutions for creativity and unique ways of solving the problems. The dude flat out lied and rewrote history. I even found a review from 2022 saying I was good at the role. Also, the dude gave me the damn job title. Up until this point I respected the guy. Now, I have lost all respect for him. It is one thing to fire for cause. It is another to lie about it sell the point.

On the way out the door my supervisor offered to be a reference for me. Several other people I worked with offered the same and couldn't fathom why I got fired. People I worked with for 7 years.

So I get thrown into the shittiest job market in the last 20 years. I can't find anything online or local. My fucking degree is a shit tech degree. So even though I can write decent software nobody wants to consider me because there hundreds of thousands of out of work SWEs on the market. I was already trying to recover from working at a shitty startup after losing a decent job due to a layoff. This was also affected by my un-diagnosed bipolar at the time. I made poor financial decisions because of some of my rare manic phases.

Unemployment from DOL finds that I was not at fault for being fired. They determined the company applied inconsistent policy on cell phone usage. Which is true to an extent. I have seen people take a lunch for 2 hours watching movies. Saw another dude sleep for 2 hours. Snoring and everything. But unemployment has no power other than giving me unemployment. Which isn't enough.

So now I am 3 months into job search and I find out that as much as 60% of the job postings on LinkedIn are fake. So there is a good chance that all of the jobs I applied for are fake.

My wife has a business, but it won't be enough when savings run out in 6 months. Because of the shit market I can't get a fucking job doing anything it seems.

I am tired, and the bullshit keeps piling up. I realize the only way I can survive is to create some kind of business.

I know, my perception of what happened is my perception. But if I was ever a valued employee they would have asked "What is wrong, and how can we help?" Instead I find out the CTO had harbored ill will toward me and NEVER FUCKING TOLD ME! I had asked for feedback in the past about my work and was told it was good work. I asked: "Am I too slow." The CTO said: "Your a little slow, but I don't have to worry about your code." Yet when they fired me they said I was getting complaints from other departments. But guess what? They NEVER FUCKING TOLD ME. This is the most sadistic way I have ever heard of managing people. Hold them to a standard that you never tell them about. I should have been clued into this when they fired the last guy. They never told anyone he was gone. I asked the CTO why they never told anyone. He said something about that is how that works. This is some serious mind fuck shit.

Had bad depression on Friday and Saturday. Really really really bad. Like planning stupid shit bad. Stupid shit in my life. Whatever...

So my friend says he doesn't feel well unless he uses St. Johns Wort. I used to use it 10 years ago, but kind of forgot about it. It did help. Well now I use risperidone to manage depression with bipolar. I got some wort and took it sunday. Huge difference in 3 hours. Way TOO high response. I already posted about this before.

Today I go see Dr to check if this is okay. I told him I don't want to stop. It seems to have leveled out. He said risperidone with wort can produce mania. However, he said reduce amount of wort to 1 every other day. So it won't have as high of peaks. Cool cool. A solution that doesn't cost an arm and leg. Also a doctor who listens. We had a lot to talk about. I would golf with him if I knew how to golf. Yes, he is that cool.

He told me a funny thing last time I was there. He said you are old enough to need a prostate check, but they do them chemically now. Then he says, but for $20 we can work something else out. Anyway, I like him.

I also noticed before this that caffeine wasn't doing shit for me anymore. But today I had a low kick espresso coffee (1 cup). Wort + risperidone + caffeine is different world now. So I gotta be careful of caffeine now too.

For a long time I was so depressed and didn't realize it. I was hoping I wouldn't wake up in the morning. I don't know how I got to this point. I have great things going for me. So I am making lists of warning signs I experienced when I was very low. Probably going to get some counseling too.

I knew I needed to improve things on some level, but no motivation to do so before this week. I bought a treadmill intending to connect it to my computer and control it. Treadmill has been sitting in a room at my house since january untouched. I keep buying electronics and never setting them up. I don't even know if they work. Just stupid shit like that.

If you are in the shit, then talk to someone. If you don't know you are in the shit then ask someone. If you have to shit all the time you are probably @b2plane.

Seriously people. You are worth the trouble of finding out how to fix your shit.

Anyway ManicOne out.

How do I make money through humor?
I am getting better at amusing myself.

For instance. I get take and bake pizza from Papa Murphys. The pizza says to cook at 425 or 450. I always cook it at 420 at what I have determined to be "perfect" times. So a Papa Murphys pepperoni is to be cooked for 11 minutes at 420 F. Literal perfection with not too dark crust, and not too light. All my homies says it great.

So if you work a remote job would you create a virtual machine to act as the device which connects to any remote employer systems? It seems like that would be ideal to keep personal separated from company data and software.

I suppose it depends upon employer requirements.

Been looking into my health issues. Seems I might have liver toxicity or some shit caused by a medication I take. Was looking at what liver toxicity would appear as in symptoms. I think I have a few of those. So I will be getting with my doctor about this. On one page it said acetaminophen could cause liver toxicity as well. I don't take that, but the: "When to see a doctor" had interesting criteria:

- Loss of appetite.
- Nausea and vomiting.
- Pain in the upper stomach area.
- Coma.

The first 3 seem reasonable, but the "Coma" symptom is sketchy AF. Like who is going to see their doctor about a coma? lol /s (in case it isn't obvious, for the autists)

How do you change password on devrant? I am looking at all the options and all I can do is delete the account. Is it hidden somewhere? I have been looking at the items on the right.

I am on webbrower.