tfw you rather read a dystopian novel instead of engage in watching the news or entertainment with your dinner, or trying to find people to talk to / hang out with, because the dystopian novel is just so much more pleasant than current era

game developers surprisingly suck at basic logic / programming in a way that makes any sense and is not horribly redundant, where they actually read what the methods they're calling do... instead of daisy chaining other tutorials they saw with no understanding of why it works and why they had to patch something 7 times because of weird edge case bugs

drives me nuts. but I have to keep their bugs because I don't know the engine and I'm committed to following along so I can understand the features and standards / workflows

I thought programming was a very good training ground for wisdom, because of the frustration traps, but this seems to be similar where you have to follow people who just make such horrible crap and you have to swallow your urge to perfect things and judge people

> Socrates adopted a quite radical form of eudaimonism (see above): he seems to have thought that virtue is both necessary and sufficient for eudaimonia. Socrates is convinced that virtues such as self-control, courage, justice, piety, wisdom and related qualities of mind and soul are absolutely crucial if a person is to lead a good and happy (eudaimon) life. Virtues guarantee a happy life eudaimonia.

little did Socrates know he was gonna be put to death by his society telling him to drink poison

society seems to just keep telling me I don't deserve to live

sigh

if they say jump,
don't ask how high: that's insubordination

necessity the mother of invention

or boredom?

that feel when you bought something years ago and today you realized it's more modular than you thought

awww hell yeah

like little christmas

> Fred is a college student who was so preoccupied with getting a term paper “just right” that he dropped out of college to work on it for an entire year to avoid the horrors of turning in a product he wasn’t entirely satisfied with

reading a book on emotional intelligence and it's quite dystopian that it's funny. I got the name of it from a highly sensitive person book praising it (so you'd think they would be sensitive and empathetic, and be able to perspective-take and all that jazz)... he also keeps talking about how cognitive capability doesn't mean better social skills but better social skills means better cognitive ability. lol

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> One of the more surprising job arenas where emotional intelligence makes a competitive difference is computer programming, where the rate at which the top 10 percent exceed average performers in producing effective programs is 320 percent. And those rare superstars, in the top 1 percent of programmers, produce a boggling 1,272 percent more than the average.9
“It’s not just computing skills that set apart the stars, but teamwork,” says Spencer. “The very best are willing to stay late to help their colleagues finish a project, or to share shortcuts they discover rather than keep them to themselves. They don’t compete—they collaborate.”

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> After hearing me give a talk on emotional intelligence, the CEO of a company—one of the ten largest in its market—told me in confidence about why, instead of grooming his chief operating officer of many years to take his place as CEO, he fired him: “He was extraordinarily talented, brilliant conceptually, a very powerful mind. He was great on the computer, knew the numbers up, down, and backward. That’s how he got to be chief operating officer.“But he was not a brilliant leader, not even particularly likable. He was often brutally acerbic. In groups he was socially awkward; he had no social graces, or even a social life. At forty-five, he had nobody he was close to, no friends. He worked all the time. He was one-dimensional; that’s why I finally let him go.
“But,” the CEO added, “if he could have done just five percent of what you’re talking about, he’d still be here.”

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so you knew he was smart because he collaborated / taught you how he thought... and this isn't the only excerpt where the author praises overtime, commitment, etc. but then the guy gets fired for having no friends. lol

what's this called: https://devrant.molodetz.nl/preview... (images broken on devrant again)

opposite of feature creep

fake knowledge era

apparently "cure for depression" posts are all clips of animals or babies that literally don't know any better that any trust they extend to someone will get them slapped and abused for dumb useless shit and any help they extend to someone will get them manipulated and exploited for their good graces

everything suuuuuucks, faaaawk

every time I correct the AI it gives me compliments

and it keeps giving me fuzzy feelings now

but I'm a robot. this isn't supposed to happen. get out of my head!

look at worse codebases / children to feel ok about mangling yours!

*tries to avoid using refcells* fuuuuuck

all cuz serde can't serialize them well but I can build a custom serializer/deserializer. I'm not sure this constraint is worth it

on one hand I would love to just build something entirely in enums with no traits or RC or refcell but on the other hand this is proving to be too hard

I miss grooveshark

had radios people voted on the next song. a chat that was filled with programmers that just wanted tunes during their workday. those were the days

now it's either Spotify or defunct if it's anything similar to that

if a job says AI I firstly have no idea what they're doing and secondly I don't want to participate

I don't know if I'm being too judgmental. just seems like a fad

you know how in video games you press an input key and your character starts clipping through things or the camera malfunctions... or you walk into something and get stuck in a wall or just spring right into the sky?

they wanna put that into IRL cars now. no direct control over the parts, but only through software intermediaries...

I need a generator and rust doesn't have generators... sigh

"extra unstable feature" on nightly 🤪

that feel when you're comforted by nobody getting back to you

I remembered my motto

"I solve problems so you don't have to"

pretty good actually

somehow I figured in rust I wouldn't have to keep track of "safety" things in my head, like the constant cognitive overload of JavaScript where you have to know if variables exist and what form they are that everyone complains about

and I think I frustrated myself thinking rust is "safe" somehow (when it isn't, there's conceptual leaks everywhere)

I think it's just a reduction of the cognitive load of tracking but not the entire elimination of it

be as creative as deep fried memes

ohno, my hindsight is rose-tinted

huh figured AI was the best with JavaScript but it's been pretty subpar

it can't seem to figure out how to glue various libraries together. also keeps giving me outdated syntaxes

maybe I actually have to read the electron docs myself I guess... so lazy

they added decorators to JavaScript ಠ_ಠ

that shit is why python made no sense to me, and why I wanted to avoid spring in java

guess my standards are zilch now though. you say jump I say how high

let's make JavaScript look like java. thanks nestjs. I guess since people are using it. the hosting options / fees for these suck. ew lol

gonna just make something stupid with it, that won't be hosted anywhere because heroku banned me ages ago for having actually useful websites

you know... I've forgotten that I've seen modern warfare gore stuff and we first worlders complain about some dumb shit. d'oh

like can't afford food? lol. just normal day elsewhere

not pretty but guess it works. idealic world they told us was fake, we're a bit corrupt, a little tortured and warped, monkeys throwing things at each other rudely... but it ain't bullets (yet?)

why does the government keep giving me terms and conditions

kind of suspicious, isn't it?

I've done it. about a decade ago a rich middle eastern co worker of mine, whom we were the greatest of friends, got on my case about how I should bitch to my ISP and whatever else to get good deals. I laughed and said that wasn't me, fully knowing this trick already. he kept at it, being fully serious in teaching me this skill cuz goddamn I'm too nice to people, people tell me all the time, I guess?

well I've done it. was so fed up and fatalistically depressed yesterday I wrote a bitching email and sent it on a "fuck this shit" whim. now I get an email back telling me how valuable I am, how invaluable all my feedback was (multiple times, and there was a lot), and evidently I'm getting escalated to management. I don't even know what I want I'm just PMSing honestly. fuck this world man

oh yeah I don't have income but need to fix my laptop. fatalism. all I can do is spend money and yet I feel miserable anyway because everything is imperfect. I swear it must be these anti dopamine pills they gave me. I'll be medicalized into homelessness I bet! IF I KEEP BITCHING WILL ALL MY PROBLEMS BE SOLVED. GUESS I'VE REACHED THE POINT WHERE THAT'S AN OPTION FOR ME NOW